Wat A tuesday

As usual...W0ke up late...haha thks to my tuesday where lessons start pretty late....1130.....

Tonight at 730 Im gonna play Captain Ball with all my neigbours..we gonna fight against the other blocks..wow...It is time for me to really put all my promises into action..LOSE WEIGHT........

Happy bersday Nisa..Yeah it is her 22nd bersday yesterday..So today we had a mini surprised party for her...see that vanilla coated with white chocolate cake?? Haha zul's choice anyway...Emm so is she surprised?? hehe I can trust Zul on that..And I risk my life haha getting scolded cos was SmSing Zul during lecture to get this surprise done....:P Happy bersday Fren....
 

Hidden Behind the flower.....hoping for something....hoping and hoping...Hoping the flower will not wither..Just like the love hoping it will keep us alive...haha kentalansss ...Got nothing to say here..trying to come out sentences to talk about this pic... 

Sometimes In life......We need to sit down..and reflect...cos we may never always be right...A daily reflection make us a better person... 

Don't you worry
Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive

 

Dk In a wedding???

Seriusly speaking haha Im not shame at all saying this..First time I witness a DK performance in a wedding ...... Kakkaka..So a bit "jakun" luckily..One of them is mah fren haha :P..
anyway they really attract the crowd with their farny songs.... Emm but that was cute....spontaneous..and interactive haha...
 

Wedding of the year

At last...Fauzi...Fairuz best fren...ended his singlehood.....So when is Fairuz's turn? haha...I spent half a day following the couple to and fro...cos Fairuz is the van driver...So many coincidence happened..I saw my own relative and MY OWN PARENTS at the groom side..haha Wat a surprised...the groom's parents actually know my parents and my other family members...old time fren....after four years haha...the groom mother found out that Im her fren's daughter....On the bride side....I saw Mah fren...he is performing for dikir barat...Panjy dk performed....emmmm so guess the world is too small....Anyway Although it was a tiring day for me..but I had fun looking at my fren getting married...sigh when is my turn 

Today is the day...the 12th Exco of Perbayu pass their torches to the 13th exco....It was a heart warming for me personally looking back at the experiences I went through..Stuffs that has been happening during this journey.....It was a tough journey being in this exco.n due to that I learn how to manage the work better....and it is enriching...I received a letter and a small token from a fren ..... even b4 opening the letter I broke down... I juz couldnt help it looking at someone who went through so much turmoil, heart breaking incidents still remember us by giving a picture of the exco..It may look normal..Neh it is juz a picture no big deal..But look it is the thought..He printed for each and everyone of us...It is sad to see him leave..Im weak really really weak...i just cannot see any individuals going through any heart breaking incidents....Luckily Im not a leader in there..Or else I will be a hypocrite Just cant bear to pin ppl down...doesnt matter he/she deserve it...And I got this from him...Profesionalism don't come packaged with love..However it can exists..with the right touch...Humans are human who need the touch of love besides being professional.....I really hope our friendship doesn't end here.... 

Im losing it

Im losing it...
It's getting far..further..n further..
It is unreachable...
It's flying..
It's departing..
Yes..Im losing it....

 

Ultimatum

Perhaps u can say im being sensitive..but I don't know why I juz couldnt take it...he can say it was a joke...Here Im trying to speak for someone n he cut it n says...n tell everyone somehow or rather Im connected to this person...Hey look.what is that suppose to mean? Bias?

I guess im changing...taking it too much and i thought it is enuff....I think...seriusly I think..someone deserved to be in my place..A better person who can talk wisely.i've been talking crap too much recently and have always been...Replaced me that's the best move mannn...gosh...why not give those newbies a chance?????

I miss those old timez..... 

Humane? Human

u can imagine how boring it is to be alone..no one to fight with not literally though..kwa kwa kwa....

However maybe being far will make things better.....

bab pepatah semakin jauh semakin wangi semakin dekat semakin busuk..pasal kalau hari hari bau kentut boleh pengsan kakakakak....(dats corny)

mah three soceity frenz slept over cos we had some things to settle till late at nights...and gosh we slept at 4 bitching haha :P standard..pompan well what else if not becos of one common topic kakaka...

Lighter?

ok 

At last Im out of the VP post in my society...
However Im in for wahana again??
I wanted to give the newbies the chance cos I think they should be given however..on another hand it is a selfish move?

Never mind then...Let this be my last contribution b4 graduatiing
This time round I will make sure jobs are delegated properly and My personal life not affected any my relationships and friendship aren't affected and Able to go for my holidayszzzz
Anyway now the job is lighter...

Look at the kid expression..That's my expression now..Dunno to be happy or sad? haha

Readingzz

My God...

I realised Im left with so little time, dayz, months and years
Im chasing for Time..HOW I wish I got all the time I want...
Hey Time come back...You are going too too fast too fast...
or Am i going too slow?? Too too slow...

Im left with 10mths If God permits b4 being a wife..emmm so is that long? or short period?? I feel it a bit too slow though

HOWEVER IM LEFT WITH 2 months before the exams..HEY THAT IS TOO FAST MANN TOOO FAST TOO FURIOUS..
Im left with a few weeks before my assignments due...AWWWW That is even faster...

And Im left with 10 months (Hope so if i cleared all modules) before being a full pledge teacher haha..THAT IS emm slow to me...

So am I chasing for time?????

To read
Read
READDDD

hey Yantz...what have u done to all your free time...

where are all my excercise plans?>???

Thanks to the 7pm chinese series drama...However I love that show..That irritating sis in law who feign pregnant...idiot

Pray hard you are not hitched to that type of family.....
However I believed my future family in law..are great people..
Hey they are great ........

Forgiveness

Hear Me out.....
Im sorry....
for hurting u
for the anger
for the words
for the actions
for the looks

I tried
but i cant
cos this is me
forgive me
for being me

I tried
but I cant
cos this is me
im imperfect

u are perfect
in my eyes
u are perfect
in my heart
u are an angel

I will never
and have never
hated you cos
u are perfect

Forgive me
for hurting
such a diamond

If needed
Push me away
however
that's my fear
losing u anyway

I don't want
to lose such an angel
never will I find
such an angel

Again forgive me
for being me
which breaks ur heart

Forgive me if unknowingly
I created that anger
that hatred in you..

Friendship is my treasure....

 

Was reading a friend's blog...It touches my heart reading her sorrows...She is going through so much in her relationship....This is something that Im afraid of...everyone says being engaged means you might go through so much tests that it may hurt..however it is a matter of how you settle every little problems..it takes two hands to clap..it is unfair if only one party is trying to adapt to his/her partner....Im scared of losing too...My fear is hidden but the fear of losing not only my fiancee but my friends is unbearable...I may not show it..but it will eat me inside...However What is meant to be yours will be yours and what is not will not.... 

Hunger strike???

Haha Im not on hunger strike...juz trying to lose weight that's all hehe

Lieja bought me some food stuff from NTUC....so sweet of her haha...

But remember this anyone reading this....I have never forget and will never forget who have been nice to me...esp buying me food hahaha..I know ma close ones have never forget me when it comes to food..that explains my size...

I will never ever forget..and God will repay every kindnesss made remember???

thks To everyone out there who are kind to me

Remember..I dun forget ppl :)

Retribution

Believe in retribution? hey yantz go n do some soul searching..something is really wrong with you mannn....
well we live we learnt..we make mistakes we learnt....And most importantly I love everybody.... 

doting wife

I have one wish...Just one wish...To be a doting Wife..There are so many things I wanna do for my husband..But we can only wish whether we are up to that standard...Emmm no one knows the future...However I believed what you are not doesn't mean it is gonna continue till u are a wife...

I know someone...WHo doesnt know how to cook..doesnt know how to clean up places before marriage..After marriage...Wow...She live up to her husband's standard..

Well that is others..

I believe others can too..we can do it...Let's give ourselves and each other chance....U will never know a crook can be and almost perfect person....

Emotional

I was watching the chinese series drama ..The 9pm show.....

I don't know why I felt soooo sooo soo damn angry with the mother character...The Money Minded F****** bitch who even squeeze out of her own son.....I hate her..how can a Mum got the heart to do such cruel thing...to her own son...Idiotic mother..

Whoever the script writer is...IT was good..U make ur viewers hate the character so much hahaha.....

Im just so pissed so so so pissed that I feel like throwing the chocolate drink which I was holding at the TV screen......

Guess my EQ is too high......

Does this idiom familiar to u guyz???

Everyone does that and someone close will always be the victim...However...no use scolding ur closed one cos the intended party will feel or know it...

This is Human......we are trying to be nice by not showing our temper but instead venting it on others.....

Let's visualize this..when u have a visitor...u scolded ur husband or anyone close in front of the visitor...Although u are not angry with the visitor...the visitor will feel that her/his presence is not liked....

I have lived in this world for 23 years..I stayed with my family for 18 years....
Im used to scolding..However Im not used to ppl "marah menantu pukul anak" cos Im used to be scolded upfront..and for the balance years I stayed with other families...although the parents scolded their children or any other members in the family and they are the intended party...As someone who seeks shelter at other's home...u feel the pinch....cos remember you are just an outsider...so I hate that idiom...For myself..I try hard not to praktis that Idiom...Cos firstly I guess it is just not fair for the innocent party..Just like when u come back from work and u are angry at work...U vent it on ur family..Isn't it unfair?????
No need to hide our anger..rather than we keep hatred by hiding our anger why don't we thrash things...

So either..if u are angry with someone....vent it upfront...dun victimise others....why don't we the community avoid that old Idiom? 

Two hours Break

Mah Linguistik Lecturer has given birth..

Emm so is this suppose to be a good news haha?

Good news for her..at least the weight inside her stomach has reduced and most importantly No class for us for two weeks????
hehehe

Im hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

but but...sigh....

Try this out

http://members.home.nl/saen/Special/zoeken.html

Peeps try this game..interesting..Spot the difference....

Car Door

Everytime I hear a sound of the door car being closed...from my hall carpark...

I have only one hope........

Sometimes I will take a peep through the blinds looking down whose car is that.....only to be dissapointed

 

Betapa kasih menghulur harapan
Berderai jua dipertengahan
Sebutir embun ku sangka permata
Hilang ke mana…

Tiada ku duga hanya sementara
Kebahagiaan yang dikecapi
Datang rintangan meragut segala
Hampanya hati….

Perpisahan………
Tiada mungkin kan terjadi
Andainya kau dapat bersama
Dan mengerti

Tapi sayang..
Kau terlalu turutkan hati
Tanpa memberi kesempatan
Aku menjelaskan….

Apa gunanya ku mengharap lagi
Sedangkan dikau terus membenci
Segala harapan
Ku jadi debu
Dlm hatiku…..
 

Cut the thorns from your rose

 


Im sorry,
If the look of me,
If my existence,
Never ever make u happy
Every little thing I do
Will never ever be right
For so u are right
to thrash me down.
For so u are fair
to hate me
to despise me
Cos im the thorns
which pricks
which pokes
which hit
which bite
your heart
your head
Hate me if u want
Ignore me if u wish
For all I know Im a pain

I could feel it
Feel the cold
Feel the freeze
From your heart
from your touch
from your stare
from your glance

I know who I am
Nothing
Nothing
A pain which has
No gain

If you wish,
cut the thorn from your rose
if that makes your rose healthier
if that makes your heart happier
if that makes your vision nicer
if that makes your mind at ease
makes your life worthy
makes your world more pleasant

Starving

... 

I think Im Starving

Pergas

After so long..almost a month..at last I went to my weekly PERGAS....Hahaha..Thks to adawiyah....I don't understand why is it so hard for me to wake up...although I did went to class just now..and as usual I was late...i went in after the break...

For Arab Module..I was totally lost....I guess I have to start from scratch....

Sunday is the day I wash my clothes...and damn it was so heavy after washing it..that I almost fall...haha used to it actually but just now was too weak...reason I guess cos my stomach was grumbling....too too too hungry...Sometimes when these things happen..I miss having a proper home where you go home and there is always some stuff to eat...

So why didn't I buy food at Jurong Point..

Answer = Lazy? Is that enuff???

The future Biz Partner

Having a serius discussion...See how red and how dark they are.....the whole day under the hot sun..Phewww Next time must bring sunblock lotion....u know what are they talking about?? Let me recall.....
"Wahlau the aircon very hot cannot feel"
"Ya lor Air con not strong....."
"See my skin all pain"
"Mine worst ah Dark"
 

One of the regulations is no jeans...although I wore a proper swim suit..Not the sexy type though....the long sleeve swim suit...I was stuck in the middle in one of the ride....Due to my weight??NOOO cos even my nieces who wore the same type of clothing and of course much lighter got stuck..guess stg is rong somewhere...:( n the queue was urghhh almost half and hour..of waiting 

Wild Wild West

At last I stepped into Wild Wild Wet...Thks to Yaya, an ambassador there..an old friend cum neighbour I got a discount....But..Too bad I went in quite late..I reached there at 3 pm Thks To uda, my niece who did not call me at ended up we wasted almost two hours waiting for each other......The rides were thrilling however one thrill ride which looks like a skateboard platform wasnt tried cos all my nieces n nephews are SO COWARD....sigh..how I wish I went with my friends...when willl that be????? 10 years time????? I love going such places with friends..... :(  

Y

Let me tell u guyz a story...

Alpha loves to eat Fish n chips...But Beta loves to eat Chicken cutlet....Delta who also loves Fish n CHips wants Alpha to eat Fish n Chips while Beta wants Alpha to eat chicken cutlet.....

However Alpha do no want to hurt Beta and Alpha's respect towards Beta or perhaps fear towards Beta, Alpha decided to choose Chicken Cutlet..And ended up Alpha got a trashing from Delta.... So Alpha have to choose between Beta and Delta....Alpha chose Beta ...But ....... Alpha feels.....

To be continued..

Wanna know more?? Go search in the library

Fatty fatty foody

ok 


Wow what a fattening meal for a late night supper....

But that's zura's food..mine is better haahah Prata....

So here's our late night supper....at AL Azhar .... Thks to zul's car..we manage to get our stomach filled whenever we are hungry.... 

Interview??

Someone...or infact two man came to my WEbdesign class to interview three of us....regarding using multimedia in classroom..

They want our opinions on using IT in class..Hahaha

and u know where the video will be shown hahaah..In an IT seminar for teachers at suntec...check it out........:P

I chose the right elective haha...besides interesting...We had free extra courses such as flash etc etc..And our lecturer even lent us tutorial cd on flash..isn't that great...

I always look forward for her class...At last Im out of those theoritical....lessons :P

Tunang???

Haha cant believe it Im toking to this MSN fren of mine about tunang...or can i say was advising him bout tunang..

That comes from me who always complain haha and who always do what a girl who is engaged not supposed to do hahah :P

Everyone seems to say..They dun wanna get engaged...They want to get married straight away..

Hey. that is what I told myself and decided to do..Straight away getting married and not getting engaged..But at last we did get engage although it was a very small affair....

I guess engagement is much better cos at least you are hitched...Being jus gf and bf is not strong enough...I mean emmm how shld i put it....

Personally I feel isn't it better ppl or ur family members acknowledge u n ur partner as fiancee rather than gf/bf.... Anyway can be a gf or bf....

But as far as i remember...Our parents have never introduce ourselves as gf / bf before we are engaged..they will simply say..."This is his/her fren"

And i think i felt a better sense of security knowing Im someone's fiancee..

Secondly..When u r engage, ur discplined towards saving money for marriage is of course much better...Getting engage is just a step away to getting married...Hence the thought of preparing to get married is there....

Pheww what's this story about engagement??/ lame stories...

Thks to this fren of mine..who happened to have the same name as my fiancee hahaha...He makes me create this lame long winded boring entry hahaha :P

Breeks!

.

Had my lunch cum dinner at Breeks..



At last I bought stg cheap for my drinks
Learnt my lesson not to order the papaya drink..eww the last time I came...i only took a few sips and that's it...Well if you are a papaya lover....by all means..

.n catch a movie...collateral..

Too bad the early part of the show I SLEPT..haha cos it was soo boring..cos too much dialog...however ... at the end of the day...I understood the show haha...not bad acctually....

however I didn't know the character was actually TOM CRUISE...the old version of it...

Haha he does look like this Hindustani star emmm I dunno the name....

Learnt my lesson not to order the papaya drink..eww the last time I came...i only took a few sips and that's it...Well if you are a papaya lover....by all means..

Terrible Trouble

Im in trouble help hahah

I need help...

Something must be done with my language..being a malay teacher...Im not speaking proper malay? My gosh....some words just cannot come out in malay...Had to think hard before i manage to translate it malay.

I guess that's the problem with us now...In general...English has been a first language till everyone just cannot speak proper mother tongue....This is bad man..

We the young malay teachers got a long way to go...we better buck up mann with our language...or else in future....Singapore will have a "rojak" language...neither proper english nor proper mother tongue.

Welcome Tea

Ok One down...At last our welcome tea is over..NEXT IS AGM...Tadaaaaa

I was the Emcee for Perbayu welcome tea..WHICH IM NOT SUPPOSE TO BE ..GRR hence I did not prepare any proper speech it was all....spontaneous..and u can imagine how bad it was

Suppose to be a malay teacher but my malay was rojak..arghhhhhhhhhh so the malu..

Tapi takpe..it was informal haha..But I had fun seeing those new comers....

Emmmm Although so many things happen..There are many soft spots in my heart for Perbayu...I guess I love it due to the friends I make..And most importantly the experiences..No doubt many unhappiness happened..I guess most importantly u learn....so many things learnt..

And the friendships made in Perbayu never ends there.....

I guess in life we should be more outwards (joining societies or at least helping out really means a lot) remember making friends is very important..esp we teachers..who need to build networks...

Collateral damage!

Went for late night supper emm not really a supper...and we ended up at west coast park

And i achieved something haha manage to climb up the spider web...the top of the web..

It is an achievement for a person who is scared of height and who doest not know how to climb ropes.....

Why do ppl have personal diary..Be it offline or online.....

Got it from mah lecturer...

It is therapeutic...

U tend to think rationally before acting when you write....

U tend to reflect when u write..haha...

However how much can you write esp in online diary u can't possibly write all your dark secrets online and let others see..If you write in a diary...what if others found it and read???????

I seen cases where ppl vent their anger or dislikes on someone through online diary..and unluckily...the intended party read it....it makes things worst....

Lokek

On one hand my mum is saying Im am being sooooooo spendthrift....

on the other hand....ppl is saying im lokek..

So wonder what I am?????

Be in my shoes and u will know...

Suddenly I juz have one wish Juz one wish.........................

Wish That Im the luckiest person on earth with no worries...

When sleeping, U don't have anything to worry..

After waking up the next day.....There is nothing to worry.....

Everything seems so perfect.....

The ordinary life that I lead is so peaceful...You worry because you have no worries...

Isn't that perfect?

Wake up Soppie...There is no perfect world for us...

Quote of the day

I got this quote somewhere

Everyone think of changing the world but no one thinks of changing himself.

Emmm that is very true..however..No one is perfect..U don't know urself..U don't know that u need to change..cos U cant see ur character...So Perhaps...That's why everyone think of changing the world....

However A true leader....they think of others above themselves..

Tom BOy

Ewww I cut my hair...My hair is already very short..and I cut again...emm so u can imagine how short it is now...Thks to zura...who influence me to cut my hair in the salon haha..

The best part was...Since the year I wear hijab emm that was in 1997...Till Now.. I have never stepped into any salon before..cos I had my hair done by myself in the toilet...That explained why my hair is messy haha......and I dun think I ever kept my hair long..the longest was slightly lower than my shoulder My gosh..how lazy I am maintaining my hair..so the best way is to cut.....How I wished it was "Botak" haha...choi choi choi..........

And now got to think about money..I simply hate holding others money ...i dun think i can be a treasurer....Tendency of using it for personal consumption is high..and u will have to pay it later...and u feel the pinch when u got to pay back...arghhh..No more holding ppl's money..it is so dreadful....

I need tuition!!!!!

Mini celebration

Went to Siam Kitchen to have our lunch...cum mini annivessary celebration...

He rate it 2/10 while me rate it 1/10 cos IT IS EXPENSIVE for normal dishes...however .... no doubt.. it is nice........well u cant expect a So called posh restaurant (although it is not that posh)...to be cheap....

slept at Tanglin halt with ma parents as usual to pass some cash..to her...

Emm it seems the big issue about the house is almost resolved .. and i mean almost which means not yet...

Was pissed to hear that i have to start paying for the house...HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO GET MONEY TO PAY....god knows how mad i was to learn that I have to start paying...
then when the heck am i going to save for marriage??duhzzz

however, I guess God answered my prayers there and then...i was brave enough to say I am reluctant to continue paying..bingo..she feels it is best she sell both houses and stay in singaporE iSNT that much better...I can visit her frequently and i think it is time for them to take a break from all these properties thingy...

Now I really hope God answered my prayers till the end of this issue...I really want to get this heavy burden out of my chest....It is soo (undescribable feeling) to think about this house thingy....

Oh ya...I guess my wish to make my marriage simple is almost granted haha .. she agreed in making it simple or even getting our marriage solemnised at ROMM then have a light feast...Gosh...thank God..I don't need to think much about money money money..Isn't it better to make your wedding simple...

If you have the money by all means do it the way u want however think again..isn't it better to spent that amount of money on your house...after marriage affairs rather than thousands of dollars gone for a one day affair.. ..Who cares about what people thinnk..cos the one emptying the pocket is you not them....most importantly get your marriage solemnised.....

I know some would think that if you make ur celebration small...Something is wrong somewhere..Either you had kid before marriage and u had to rush ur marriage so that explains why the small affairs or you are a "janda" or perhaps...emm cant think of other reasons...oh ya perhaps you are afraid ppl might think you are too poor to have a big wedding....

Hey peeps wakey wakey...if ur conscience is clear...then dun care what ppl think of u..

Emm perhaps we cld say..hey it is once in a lifetime..we shld make it a memorable one...emmm
i agreed on that and that's why Im gonna take studio photo...like I said..If u have the funds..by all means...AND IF U ARE THE LUCKY chap where ur parents sponsor your wedding...by all means...

Not for me where I got to sponsor my own wedding..and I mean the whole event..had to come out from my own pocket..Sigh..Ok if I wanna do a big one then wait for a few more years..NO NO NO ... I rather do a small wedding and tada..im a wife...

Now that's my aim..I dun care whether it is going to be big or small so long it doesn't burden me..and MOST IMPORTANTLY after marriage...I have enough funds to survive haha AND MOST MOST IMPORTANTLY no DEBTSSS

Wake Up Peeps

Dear peeps....

Why do we humans...would love to concentrate on people's mistakes rather than the good things they have done so far?....unless that person have never done any good in his/her entire life...

99 good things done by someone but
1 wrong move..created the impression that a person is bad...

How unfair it is?

Let's change our mindset....why don't we see the good points rather than concentrate on the mistake..cos NO ONE IS PERFECT REMEMBER NO ONE IS PERFECT

and all good things done deserved to be appreciated...

Let's be humane.....let's appreciate good things people have done so far..and forgive n forget the mistakes he/she has done...

Regards
Imperfect ladeh...

CRYING MY HEARTS OUT....

While I was sitting down, gazing the beautiful stars....Suddenly I felt..There are so many things that is happening and going to happen which need my attention which i been trying to avoid it..How long should i avoid these problems....

Im even too scared to think about it...

Im trying to be nice but it ended up being a burden to me...

How I wish sometimes that I have a mind of my own and not afraid of others....

Now Im trapped....

Getting hitched, going into a new family may not help much...cos i guess the problems start there....

Readers might not understand what the hell am i talking about..
Well that is diary..U dun expect ppl to understand what you are saying...

So let me understand it myself..........

For now what i can say is

I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING MY HEARTS OUT....CRYING MY HEARTS OUT....

Making decision is easy....Producing the reason is not...

No way ! No way !

No WAY NO way im getting a third party name involved in the shits that is going on...

It is juz so unfair...

A name can be tarnished.......

He is simply too nice for me to tarnish his name.....

Annivessary

9th August........

Has everyone forgotten?

Most importantly..has it lose its importance to u.....???

Is it a special day for u?

Where are u on this special day?

It is a nice feeling waiting for an update from someone juz to find out that u can be updated via a blog.....

Blogging. Blogger. Blog.........

Let's update each other via your blog..perhaps ur wife...ur husband....put it in ur blog..and there u are..updating each other..so safe the trouble of calling..

Blogging

Blogging is so addictive that u have to update your day in ur blog..so that others can view it...And perhaps..telling ur close ones is no longer important...juz put it in blog..everyone can read including ur close ones...he/she can know what is going on via ur blog...

WHy not let blogging overtake handphones..where ppl dun need to make calls to update stuffz....
save ur money right....

It has been a long time since i go to his house...

As a fiancee...shld i or shld not be too close to ur future in laws???

Emmm that is a good question...

I admit..it has been a long time..perhaps i shld put aside my shyness...

Im afraid..i expose myself too much

U may think you are the nicest person on earth....cos everywhere u go every moment u are trying to be nice..kind..good...

However...too much kindness which u think u have done....may turn negative..

Sometimes I wonder...trying to be perfect is impossible..Trying to be the nicest person on earth is also impossible....If you are cruel..u are hated..if u are too nice...u can be misunderstood....

So what should humans be?

Too much good things can be bad sometimes...

Dian's engagement

Another "anak sedara" engagement today...

This relative of mine is my cuzin's daugther...and we are of the same age..haha and To them Im a Makcik..ewwwwww that old...Awwww

Fireworks

The fireworks today is soo beautiful but too bad our view wasn't that great..But Gosh..the crowd..is terrible the whole of esplanade..The bridge and i guess the expressway..Clarke quay were packed with families, couples, friends..trying to catch the beautiful fireworks..It was said that the fireworks were from the hong kong team..

We had to squeeze ourselves to get throught the crowd..Thank God i Manage to get some pics of the fireworks..

Wanna see it? go to http://photos.yahoo.com/siberyantz under fireworks...
My camera wasn't that good and the view was blocked by trees....

However my mind wasn't at ease..So many things to do..assignments.....

Im tired.....

T.I.R.E.D

tired of everything and everyting

my emotions are tired...

Im so sorry for not being there ....

Im so sorry for not spending much time..

Im so sorry for not giving u enough...

Im so so sorry.....

However there will be a time where everyting will be put aside..and im urs forever n ever..

Awww

suddenly suddenly
I feel there are so many things to do..so so so many things....

let me see wat are the things

Getting assignments done..
Reading
reading
reading
n
reading
n last but not least
perbayu however academic comes first but still responsibilty must not be chided....

Gosh how am i gonna manage my time...

Im bad in time management.....

Post Mortem

Had post mortem regarding Awallah dondang today...
Sad to see that it wasn't full strength....cos thera are a lot of things to be said...And the people targeted did not attend.wat a waste

The committee went esplanade to eat satay..I could not attend too bad so sad..

wanna know why hahaha lame lame lame..

cos i dun have cash in hand.....so sad..

Its ok....let them enjoy themselves...

It was a cutest momenttt........my gosh ... once in a while doing it ..it is juz so fun..

playing dog n bone...anak harimauh on the beach in the middle of the night..
sitting down..talking
it is juz soo relaxing....

i feel like a kid...
hahahah
dats a nice feeling

n someone step on a rusty nail haha and got an injection hehe
and someone enjoy the moment with her love of her life hahahaha

Mp3player

I saw an Mp3player cum thumb drive going for 69 bucks for 128MB..ISNT THAT WORTH IT
i almost buy it..however had to seek permission from someone hahaha...but that someone doesn't allow me to buy sooo sadddd

however .... i had to listen to him hahahah cos he is gonna be my future husband so have to praktis listening heheh anyway he got a point there

the money..better save for marriage hahaha

bye bye mp3player..perhaps next time when im quite well off i will buy u over one day...

At last

At last AWALLAH DONDANG iS OVER....

Emm should I say successfull? well everything went on juz fine although there are a few hiccups...however ...Congrats to all the perbayuans and the helpers...without the combine powers AD will never be this far.....

But so sad no video taken..

I learnt a lot of things from this AD ... Get to know a lot of people.....going thru thick n thin together makes u realise so many things...

the experience we went through together.... staying late at club rooms....meetingss going to picnicss it is juz so fun..

Although I had a lot of sacrifices to do such as frenship love...things went on well..Ma frenz was supportive..the happiest moment was when my own frenz went to help at club rm in the middle of the night and stay till early early morning to help out one day before AD....

The AD itself i had to do follow on spot light..wow..what a disaster...emm shld i say disaster.??? hahah it was a good experience...learnt something new however...awww I was shouted at by someone hahaha...well well well..it give me a shock of my life..but i got myself to blame..i was too kanchong weiii sapa tak kanchong....

AD have a few tech faults however with the initiative of some ppl..things went on juz fine....
Such as the curtains cannot be opened for one of the item..and thanks to the pixies....

Im quite happey with the whole thing accept for somethings but
everything that happens teaches us a few lessons..no one is perfect...in any such production done by a non professional...u cant expect perfect show...getting it done smoothly is good enuff
and most importantly we can say AD audiences can be considered full house...

Thanks ppl..for making AD happen...

Wahana over..Ad over..AND NOW LUAHAN PENA ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH